Anger is always there to lead to evil

 Psalm 37:8 

“Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil.”

There is always something that causes repeated anger to make you want to have that person disappear in your life. Either you disappear or he/she/it disappear.

Why, How, When, Where

In my case, in my work, its my manager.

My working hour being hectic is norm.

Instead of working 24-8 ..  8 is seelping hours + driving to work.  The rest is working time.

What work would i have ? i just admin when applied, suddenly told me it was a mistake im a Personal Assistant, But my boss STILL think im admin as well ?? 

Mostly of my current working style would be whole day in Manager room. Doing what? Filing, Stapling, Talking. Ok, maybe 30 min - 2 hours just to do my own job task.

=.=ll  files are just in front of her, Staple just beside her, talk...  one of MY HOMEwork is finding ghost movie for her.

I really dont know which staff I am.

But i never thought of resigning because the work is to my liking, deduct the Manager.

There always a phrase around :

When you find the work enjoyable, superior is a B**** instead

When you find the work hard, superior is an Angel.

My case would be, mine is Doom for me.

Today, i went out of her room earlier because i got a lot to rush, I dont have time to babysit her. So, I went back my place and do my own work to prevent need to work OVERTIME (no OT pay) till 11pm, and work normal as usual the next day.

Just because I'm doing my work, my Manager keep on coming my seat place messed up those papers and asked which to shred which not to.

All are needed to do invoicing and sent out to client. In stiff tone to control anger i replied her that, If shred this, no need charge the customer already. And kept on messing with me.

Luckily my heart is always at good condition. 

When i planned to write "how to Murder your Manager" on my next Novel, i reflected ?

 Psalm 37:8 

Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil.

Ya ... evil...  evil thoughts to kill her...

And i meditated and keep repeating these words, YES, anger lost.

but of course my Novel chapter is still going to be updated. =P

My closing prayer

 Few weeks back, 

I was asked to say closing prayers for the cell group meeting.

the environment was like, its ok. Just try your best. But still, I was stressed.

Majorly due to COVID-19, being state of "always at home", out of outside contact, 

made me reduce my face-to-face interaction with outsiders except family members.

But still, there are something that family wont be the choice for my talk. God would be the patience listener. Hehe

Back to topic, 5 min preparation, i already had in my heart, just add some sentence and beautify only. Usual prayer of gratefulness for food and learning. 

But ...  However...   pressure of the presence of people getting heavier, the words, jumble, ended short...  its was a disaster.

It was said when you talk to God, focus. But usually i pray, i "talk" to him 1 on 1. So, im used to I pray that, so to change it, I cant fully focus, as need to divide attention to the wording. 

But doing so, attention divided to other people being there.

So, i just prepared one...
As my instinct, sixth sense been telling me

(just "Dear God" when just me praying)

God wont care how you present your words, just your heart (sincerity) is most important, God know what you are thinking and knows what you want to tell him but waiting for you to tell him. 

But people cares, so word matters. So, beautify it. The end.

Dear Lord, our heavenly father, we pray in the name of Jesus, with the power of Holy Spirit,

we ask that the words we have heard today preached by (name) speaker, through your grace, be grafted in our hearts, 

(that they may bring forth in us the fruit of spirits, to honour and praise your name)

And thank you, Lord, for this food before us. Bless (name) host  for kind hospitality, the preparation for the  food (and those who are sharing it with us). May it nourish our bodies and bring us together in gratitude and love.

In the name of Jesus, we pray, Amen.

Songs that interested me

Heard some song & searched for it :

1) Harry Styles - Sign of the times

2) Sam Smith - Diamond 

3)   Sia - Cheap Thrills

4) Anna Kendrick - Cups   

(May heard this song & Cheap Thrills by Sia if you have seen Perfect Pitch)

5) Radiohead - Creep

6) The Cranberries - Zombie (Original)  (Remake - Bad Wolves, released on 2018)

This video is remake - by Bad Wolves, which made me feels like "The Cranberries Feat. Bad Wolves" 

They added a "grungy & metalic-tinged" feel. 

Basically I love both the remade and the Original song which composed & sang by Dolores (The Cranberries). I don't have any extra opinion for this, just its a very good song, and all the proceeds from the tracks will be donated to her three child, so I'm good.

My Dear Lappy

Lappy = Laptop, I dont know why I named it that, haha.

At first, I wanted to have a laptop cz there are many games that I wanted to play. Though I like games but I'm not that..  till Otaku level...

Before I get my lappy, I've made a list of game & passed to my brother.

The games that I wanted & Things i remember bout the game:

1) Starcraft

Cheat code - 

• Whorunbattertown (Resources)
• Catfoodforprawnguns (Speed-immediate)
• hanshotfirst (no cooldown required - useful for those without energy)

2) Skyrim

My beloved game...

Cheat code -

• player.modav carryweight 1000000   =p  (modav -permanent, setav-have to key in everytime play)
• player.additem 0000000F 1000000 (too much, money will be negative instead)
• player.placeatme (Items appear outside, but not in inventory. eg . for horse)

3) Fallout Shelter~

Since both Skyrim & Fallout shares the same developer Bethesda, so the cheat also the same = )  But this game made me dizzy   =.=ll

4) Left4death...  

I like to use Katana...   feels like clean cut..  
i hate Charger, i always get caught T.T



5) Witcher..   

the graphic is really really pretty...
>< I forgot the control, so need replay again.


6) Styx..

a game of utilizing stealth & be sneaky..  not my type of game, but wanted it cz its very funny & cute, cz after you (the player) died, theres a death scene, Styx will say some insulting / scornful.

Hmm..  i probably a bit of M?  hahahhaha

Video from you tube

7) Middle Earth : Shadow of War

Middle Earth : Shadow of Mordor won the best game of the year 2015. Shadow of War is sequel of Shadow in Mordor. But since not much difference between the 2, Shadow of war didnt win the Game of the year. 

Interesting storyline, reader of lord or the ring & the hobbits may find this game interesting because this game's storyline is adapted from Tolkien's novel, era between hobbits & lord of the ring.

Definitely not my type. You need to kill the Orc & by killing the Commander, one of benefits is may get skill. Each time you accept the mission, but failed to kill & died by the hand of the Commander, when u re-take the mission, the orc will get stronger...  basically u die, he become stronger, so  play new game to reset everything.

advice : train & hunt freely before accept of do mission, play stealth, every orc commander got weakness, intel can be known by lower orc.
BTW, my bro told me, can dominate the orc, but may be betrayed, just a matter of time.
Can unlock, riding dragon...  & summon

8) Diablo 2

press enter, /players 8
then will see a message players set to 8
difficulty level, harder to kill enemy, easier to level up.
I like to increase difficulty to Max (8), so when proceed to Act II, I will straight go to Halls of dead, to get Horadric Cube, haha

Advice from my bro - aura using meditation, increase cleansing & using skill Zeal, Dex do not be too low, as accuracy in Zeal depends on Dex.

This is an old game for me. But I wanted it because, I stuck at Duriel ><   due to wrong skill invested, then after my bro teaches me, i completed it.   A game of memory.  ^^

9) Dynasty warrior 6

The horse..  i wan get a perfect horse to my preference T.T   renbu & musou
Im using Sun Jian to train horse , cz he got the Horsemanship skill..  I dont like using guan yu, cz feels like to bulky to run, hehe (i like shun shang xiang, increase speed every few sec, haha - her skill)
To get horse, i like to use liu bei lady luck.

But while playing other charac, you may get horse as well. I barely raise the horse to max, my horse list full, but i get a new horse..  

10) Doraemon, story of seasons

Nobita & his friends travel through dimension to Story of Season. (Similar to game - Harvest Moon) You will be playing as Nobita, earn money through farming & rearing cow, sheep & chicken. Required to send gift to all, to increase the friendship in order to proceed the storyline. Difference is that Nobita wont be getting married in this game, but Story of Season of other & harvest moon can get married.

Mid Autumn Festival

Mid Autumn Festival is also known as Moon Cake Festival. Families would be eating Moon Cake while watching the full moon. This festival is related to some old legend or stories. But nowadays, many youngster only remembers the name of Moon Cake Festival instead of Mid Autumn Fesival and there are lesser people been taking stroll with the lantern. 

Actually kind of sad because this year I couldnt play with lantern. As, each year after my mom lit up the lanterns, I would be the one taking care f it in case it get burn down. So, it quite fun at some point.But sadly, this year been working,no holiday for the festival. Sad. But the moon still always the same, the same round and full as each year.

My family and I celebrate Mid Autumn Festival earlier, went to restaurant celebrate.

 The apple cider and Smirnoff were bought before we went for dinner. The apple cider is a bit bitter so I prefer the Smirnoff . It taste a bit like tonic and the most important thing is it's sweet and not bitter. haha

Actually I'm not quite sure how much is the alcohol content. Because while we were eating, I was told my cheeks are red and some picture are taken. Hmmm...  Probably because either  drink with empty stomach or I was drinking too fast.  haha  =p