Anger is always there to lead to evil

 Psalm 37:8 

“Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil.”

There is always something that causes repeated anger to make you want to have that person disappear in your life. Either you disappear or he/she/it disappear.

Why, How, When, Where

In my case, in my work, its my manager.

My working hour being hectic is norm.

Instead of working 24-8 ..  8 is seelping hours + driving to work.  The rest is working time.

What work would i have ? i just admin when applied, suddenly told me it was a mistake im a Personal Assistant, But my boss STILL think im admin as well ?? 

Mostly of my current working style would be whole day in Manager room. Doing what? Filing, Stapling, Talking. Ok, maybe 30 min - 2 hours just to do my own job task.

=.=ll  files are just in front of her, Staple just beside her, talk...  one of MY HOMEwork is finding ghost movie for her.

I really dont know which staff I am.

But i never thought of resigning because the work is to my liking, deduct the Manager.

There always a phrase around :

When you find the work enjoyable, superior is a B**** instead

When you find the work hard, superior is an Angel.

My case would be, mine is Doom for me.

Today, i went out of her room earlier because i got a lot to rush, I dont have time to babysit her. So, I went back my place and do my own work to prevent need to work OVERTIME (no OT pay) till 11pm, and work normal as usual the next day.

Just because I'm doing my work, my Manager keep on coming my seat place messed up those papers and asked which to shred which not to.

All are needed to do invoicing and sent out to client. In stiff tone to control anger i replied her that, If shred this, no need charge the customer already. And kept on messing with me.

Luckily my heart is always at good condition. 

When i planned to write "how to Murder your Manager" on my next Novel, i reflected ?

 Psalm 37:8 

Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil.

Ya ... evil...  evil thoughts to kill her...

And i meditated and keep repeating these words, YES, anger lost.

but of course my Novel chapter is still going to be updated. =P

My closing prayer

 Few weeks back, 

I was asked to say closing prayers for the cell group meeting.

the environment was like, its ok. Just try your best. But still, I was stressed.

Majorly due to COVID-19, being state of "always at home", out of outside contact, 

made me reduce my face-to-face interaction with outsiders except family members.

But still, there are something that family wont be the choice for my talk. God would be the patience listener. Hehe

Back to topic, 5 min preparation, i already had in my heart, just add some sentence and beautify only. Usual prayer of gratefulness for food and learning. 

But ...  However...   pressure of the presence of people getting heavier, the words, jumble, ended short...  its was a disaster.

It was said when you talk to God, focus. But usually i pray, i "talk" to him 1 on 1. So, im used to I pray that, so to change it, I cant fully focus, as need to divide attention to the wording. 

But doing so, attention divided to other people being there.

So, i just prepared one...
As my instinct, sixth sense been telling me

(just "Dear God" when just me praying)

God wont care how you present your words, just your heart (sincerity) is most important, God know what you are thinking and knows what you want to tell him but waiting for you to tell him. 

But people cares, so word matters. So, beautify it. The end.

Dear Lord, our heavenly father, we pray in the name of Jesus, with the power of Holy Spirit,

we ask that the words we have heard today preached by (name) speaker, through your grace, be grafted in our hearts, 

(that they may bring forth in us the fruit of spirits, to honour and praise your name)

And thank you, Lord, for this food before us. Bless (name) host  for kind hospitality, the preparation for the  food (and those who are sharing it with us). May it nourish our bodies and bring us together in gratitude and love.

In the name of Jesus, we pray, Amen.