Since May, I have adopted him. At that time, he is just a child. He is very cute and obedient. I'm used to put my food on the floor and he always take my junk food. Haha..... such a weird hamster....
Don't know from when, I already treated it as a part of my life. Now although I may not see him again, as he has just passed away at 7:45 pm today. He is the best hamster I have ever had.
I will always fell his presence in my room where he love to go.
He died like Rocky ( my last time hamster), which is just a hamster child, it is grey in colour. At first it is very weak, unable to move, unable to eat, then having difficulty in breathing. All this sign is same with Xiao Ker Ai.
The two difference is I have done 3 times CPR to him as he has stop breathing but for Xiao Ker Ai ,I only did once but it couldn't make it breath again.
The last time I stop save Rocky is when I was pressing his chest, a light green colour jelly came out from its ass-hole, but Xiao Ker Ai, I don't know.....
They have the same smell when I'm doing the CPR, the same weak body, and the same kind of looking..... a look of hope....
I'm wondering if I really saved both of them, will the continue to suffer..... I could only thought of YES as it is what I get after I have done CPR for 3 times....
Rocky can rest in peace, I guess. As i can close its eyes. But I don't think Xiao Ker Ai can as I tried to closed it many times already but at least it is not the look of vengeance...
From the moment I know he is sick, I'm wondering " Am I the one who causes him to die"?
AiAi died the day before my final exam. Now Xiao Ker Ai died on the day before my last exam is over.
Now Xiao Ker Ai is beside me, how I wishfully hope that it will come back to life, although it is looking for vengeance.... like Rocky dying on my hand and watching them die but cannot help them is the most suffered moment in my life.
P/S Xiao Ker Ai...... Rest in Peace ..... if you can't I welcome you back..... for anything.... including vengeance as I feel that If I'm not the person who rare you, you might have a longer life..... I'm sorry.....
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