Tmr is Christmas Day.... : )

And i saw this pic

Hmmmm...... Its quite a hardwork, hope i can finish it ^^ before today 12am, haha ^^

Lol, at first I only thought it was only one set , who knows it is divided into 3 set, the Santa claus, reindeer and the Sleigh....

Yeah, back to my papercraft.... ^^

A roses of thorn

During the road of love, you might met the wrong person
or you might have change, better or worse?

Love is like a rose of thorn.

The thorn is like the challenges, you can choses to pick the roses or not, getting involve with love/not.
the wound you get is the quarrel and the hurt you get.
The roses is like the love, pretty as ever but it also tends to tell love might die like the flower when you pick it up.

If you have taken the correct rose, congratulation.....

Some people tends to sacrifice their life for their love ones without knowing that it might make that girl or guy feel touched but if you loses your life wouldn't he or she sad?.... sad of losing you?

throughout the challenges, it may change you to another person, but the people who care of you reminds of who you are and why you are so lovable to them.

If you lost or didn't lost that love, don't lose who you are.

I said love like roses is ..... because
Roses takes time and needs time to grow, that why, some ppl hard to get love...
correct or not? : )

Greed

Why we want to be greedy.
All the thing in this world got level to me.....

the highest level and lowest.

Highest level of greed can make you sacrifice anything to get the thing you wanted
Highest level of love can make you sacrifice anything even ur life to your lover

one greed can bring us to another greed.
Some greed are nice to have but some weren't....
Ppl with high greed will always get what their want without thinking of others feeling....


I knew a person who wants something and I somehow related to it. thinking she would be my friend, but after she is achieving what she want, she tends to talk words with bone to me....
Not I think too much, but it really does, so that is why now im getting further away from her.

That why now im thinking that better keep away from high level greed of ppl. Who knows later one day, if u accidentally prevented your friend getting what he or she want, you will be in a great harm....
the most innocent is dunno why your friend harm you.....

Just why ppl tends to....

I read a news about a guy committed suicide for a girl.
It didn't make sense to me.
The guy commit suicide coz the girl left him.... saying that he can lost her as he love her too much.
One thing, if you love one person too much, would you live happily instead of commit suicide leaving guilt to that girl and leaving blame to that girl.

" Don't let go of whole forest because of one tree".
For me, this Chinese proverb isn't mean let go of the girl, this world still have girls that can bring you hapiness and love.

But it means don't let everything that you have achieve, are achieving, and tend to achieve.
If you commit suicide, how about your family, your career, your friends, and those people who care of you. If you commit suicide this all will lost, is it worth?

Maybe you can say you don't have family or friends, or even career and u lost your the only wishes to live ( your lover) . I have nothing to say.

But if you say you are a loser, you don't want to burden other ppl. Then if you commit suicide, would u imagine you will give shock to ppl depending how you commit suicide. Causing that person hav to see the psychologist, burden your family for the money for your burial. Wasted the love given by your family.

Or you don't tell me you chooses to commit suicide coz 2012 is coming..... This reason is stupid .If it is really 2012, why don't die of nature, die for what we human has done wrong towards the mother nature.


Before commit suicide please think of from baby till now, what happiness do you have, don't just think the unhappy event. Just try hard , and I noe its hard coz humans only tend to remember the unhappy event only. Just try to remember the every moment, each second that the time from baby till now.
That time , you might feel it is not worth to commit suicide

care

The word of care seems a much burden of word to me....
You can say you care for that person, but in which sense.
Care is such a broad word.

When you mention is there someone who care of you.?
Surely there does, but there is just different care they care of you although you think you doesn't need it or you wishes more or wishes they will care about you on other thing.

If that person is healthy, u surely can't care about the person health, don't you?
If that person have illness, you surely have to save up all the information related to that illness and send to that person, isn't it?

If that person wishes someone to hear to, you will always be the person listener although it also took ur revision for exam time....
Although you feel annoyed after some time, but you still listen to it, although you would mention that i got something to do. opr you might get back your lost time back through other reason....

If that person is being critic, you will keep defend that person.
If you are really care of that person, maybe your heart will agree with the comment ppl gave. But if you really care of that person, wouldn't you keep supporting the person you care without doubting and without finding the explanation for yourself to find the truth. If you really care of a person, you wouldn't care of the truth or the rumors people are saying....


One person can't care for all the people. I care for my friends, my family and my pets also and my things....

I care of my pet daily diet and health
I care of my sis
I care of my sis safety
I care of my sis health
I care of my bro hapiness
I care of my dad health
I care my mom health

and I gave different care for different friend.

I always care of one without letting them noe so that they wont express their hapiness or some misunderstand why i care of them.


Sometimes I too care of others and I didn't Take care of myself well.....
and please don't say I don't care of .....
I tried my best to care of everyone. But my care seems wasted after someone told me I don't care....
I care too lot on that person.....
Now i'm not needed to care of that person anymore, seems like free now and it's like a big rock has been put down.


Friend

Friend.....
means to me.... is you be friend with a person with your true self....
without pretending or .....

There is one thing I don't understand.... just why gal and guy can't be friend..... I get different comment when I be friend with both.
People always says, don't be too close with guys, if not will fall in love with them or in other way. But if girls, wouldn't you scare if you too close with a friend which is girl , might became les??
Low possibility doesn't mean won't....
coz sometimes I will think if my best friend is a guy I might fall in love with her, haha

When I close with a girl friend, we are said as being friend,
if we are too close friend, we being said as got road.... haha
If I didn't close with a girl friend, they will say we quarrel.

when I close with a guy friend, we being said as got road,
if we are too close fren, will be said as confirmed got road. =.=ll
If i didn't talk to my guy fren, they will say i'm arrogant or snob.
Or if i close with guy friend, they will say I'm trying to court him or I'm a .... =.=lll weird....

For me, I will limit my attitude towards my friend. depending how close we are.
Don't you feel weird, if you suddenly talk Formally to your close friend or suddenly became so friendly towards a friend which is not close to you?

If I'm too close with a person and that person feel weird .. Then ... I'm sorry.... it seems that our friendship at that person is not as I imagine. Our friendship might seems worthless. I discover Life is like the Sim game quite long ago.... after I came to KL? forgot rdy -,-
When I thought we are 70& friend, that person might thought is 50% friend. Sadistic huh?
So, I'm quite... know a BIT WELL if we are really ONLY friend. Friend are always friend to me ^^

If I didn't talk, means I got problem troubling me.
If I didn't smile, means I look fierce.

=.=ll Hard to live in a society without other people comment.
Some comment are good but some aren't.
and harsh comment might causes injuries to people, either physical or mentally depending who is the commenter.

Hmmm, what b'day present i should give....

i got a friend birthday is coming....
The problem is he is a guy....

i sure 100% cant give him present as our friendship....

haih, keep wondering what to give him....

sure not tie, coz it got meaning, plus its not cheap =.=ll

then, i thought before about papercraft.... then i think of it would consume a lot of time.... then plus if i give him rdy, it mght in the dust bin, plus the one im thinking , i make it before but i failed, no confidence.....

then what he needs, he have rdy..... what i can giv, hmmm.....
lol, thats y i dun like to be fren with guys coz when thinking of their present, i would want to ........

aiya, if girls at least i can present them a teddy bear, but hor, its impossible to give a guy this lea... how.... T.T

any idea??

hmmm, half dead....

later afternoon got test , later got presentation....

haih, die, coz the test i tried hard to memorize, but i noe but when i assume the ques is infront of me, i CANT think of any point,
i dunno why, its like only this subject only...

plus 5 subjective question, one ques 20marks, lol, aso dunno how to pass....

by the way, my memory like a bit ok rdy compared to last time where u ask me bout the dinner that i had previous night, i barely could remember.....


then i scare the presentation later i will be too nervous
guess its coz too long din present.
haha, still remember when at Kampar, its like, everyday also need presentation, all coursework also need to present, haih....
made me till a BIT used to it, but the when later on sem break,
a period of time din present, made me nervous back rdy, haih....

now scare of test + the feeling of nervous haih
haih, dunno why now its seems like its getting harder to remember things

A past is a past

haha, lol, now thinking back the time when i sprained my leg, haih.....
that time so funny....

later i got presentation, so i have to plan the time from coll citc to the class, based on my speed of walking with HIGH HEELS, i think i might need 35 min, lol

okay la, coz i think if im wearing sandle might need only 25 min....

haha, but when i sprain my leg that time, i need at least 45 min, lol, coz that time really hard to walk but the hardest is when it came to the STAIR matter.... haih....


When will it end.... hmmmmm.....

A nightmare is a basically a dream that can causes a strong negative emotional response from the sleeper which is fear &/ horror.


Nightmares can be caused by sleeping in an uncomfortable or awkward position, having a fever, or by stress & anxiety and that is same for eating before bed, which trigger in the body's metabolism and brain activity to increase.


These is what I got.... lol, getting nightmare for a long time rdy.....

1 nightmare seems like 3 nightmares for me....

i never had nightmare so frequently, when i was a kid, i dreamt about cockroach...four time, once a month, ...

=.=lll once a month being given SURPRISE by that damn cockroach.....


But this time....

Its started with a dream about rape, then some about killing, then shocking, then killing, then shocking, its like happening on and on.... It thought few days ago it stopped as i didn't have nightmare again but.....

the day before yesterday I had nightmareagain..... Its about killing then 5 hours later im able to sleep again, but I had a dream about a talking dart is hunting me, telling me not to scare , nothings happen, don't hide, come out....

=.=ll like a wolf is cheating a sheep, haha : P

=.=ll it would be nice if i had nightmare when exam is coming, I can pay attention to study, haha... -,- cold joke....

What a weird people....

....
Eg. A B and C are friends.
three of them are quite close. Until one day, there are some disagreement of opinion between A and C ....
It is not a small matter.
They didn't talk for almost a week.

B who prefer not to involve, stay outside of the topic until one day while chatting, B telling A that he should join others.

Maybe you will think that hmmm..... how nice is B. B hopes there is no quarrel happens.

what if B keep telling, a bit of persuading A to join others than them.....
It only gives me the feeling of B don't want A to be there to causes him into the mess.


In the first place, if its not A fault and you are playing A part, what would you felt.
If B really meant to persuade you to join others....

Wouldn't you think that,
" why don't just tell me that you scare I will cause trouble to you, I might be surprised if you are straightforward but better than I thought you are saying for my own good, thought that you really want to be friends with me and then I discover that actually we just are fake friends"

I think this is what i would say... Hmmmm.... prefer an honest person who really wants to make friend....

Have you ever think before if you don't like a person, surely you will try to tell him NOT straightly....
but if he din understand you will be UPSET....

so , why dont just tell him, rather than make him felt happy coz he thought he got TRUE friends that care of him then suddenly let him knew that you scare you will get involve although its not His fault.... Maybe you wont feel pity but if you put u as 'HIM' , i think your life would be miserable.



Nightmare

for me, nightmare is a very scary thing.
The first nightmare have that i can remember is the CAT.....

Where that night my mom, dad and my first sis is out....
left me , my second sis , my third sis and my bro at home....

our neighbors are all eaten by the alien cat....
that night is dark....
i was at outside accidentally heard the CAT conversation ... then i told my 2nd sis. The bravest gal....
she very brave and says that she will have a talk with the Cat. We were proud of her.
Then the talk failed and they killed her. Then my 3rd sis shout . Faster lock the door. but it was too late. we noe that there isn't any hope left as the braves gal died.....

I remember well coz i was really really afraid of.....
that day on. for one month i din dare to near cat... -,-


Then after few years , in my dream is cockroach running here and there.... like the camera paying attention to that cockroach.... =.=lll yikes.....
that is after i was being scared by the cockroach that night....
having that dream for a week.....
Four times after being scared by the damn cockroach for FOUR TIMES means one year go 4 weeks, different month dreaming bout the cockroach...

then as i remember .... this year i was hunted by a 12 yrs old gal wearing white gown, a pretty gown indeed.... =.=lll
then the nxt day, almost ha;f of my classmate INCLUDE me wearing white colour shirt

then these few days, i kept dreaming of a gal being rape.... =.=lll
actually hor, y do i have this dream.... =.=lll its like having ppl dream,..... =.=ll

The Perfect Story....

The Perfect Story by Low Kay Hwa for me is the most PERFECT story I had ever read for this moment.
I love the way how he plot, how he plan the story...

The story really like going by its own....
^^
how a boy plan for revenge.
like it is a real story like it happened.
like he is really Furor

Promises to me...

Promises to me actually means NOTHING now....

promises from classmate ( 0-40 % ).....

Promises from family 80% will come true

Friend - 40-60%.... depends


Just felt weird. I read two Storybooks of Low kay hwa. Its bout promise to lover.
One thing I found out.

People always promise:
-not to break up....
-will hold their hand till the end....
-will never leave them alone
- etc

but how much couple really do what they promised.....
If they break up.... one of the sides will says that ' u promise me before, u wont leave me' or .......
what has happen, happened.
what is said, is past.
Promises are nothing, just an empty words without meaning....

When you promise something, u mean it but when time passesby, u don't feel like doing so as your heart now belongs to another promise.
For example, now you promise a person two days after go ts for a movie but when that day comes, u feel like don't want to go as you felt like there are things for you to do or the journey to ts is tiring.....


Lol, cheik..... me like expert leh, haha....
read too much the Loh Kay Hwa books liao.....

lol.... why all what I planned fails

All the plan i want to do with my classmate like going for a lunch or gym or squash.

One year ago, I ask my classmate if want to go to TS for a movie as my sis had gone to SG....
My fren din reply.....
The second time, after few months, i asked again, my friend rejected.....
Nvm.... u can say its the wrong timing as i asked my friend at that particular day....


Then this year, i ask my friends to go to Wangsa there to eat our lunch....
They say want but they have to ask whether got ppl drive.... Hearing them saying like that I knew that plan sure BB.
Just thinking if don't want just say dun wan la, why have to give me hope then somemore crush it.
The most sad thing is actually I want to ask a person go to as before that, there is some misunderstand. But the plan cancel rdy.....
In the end follow my friend's plan.

The next thing is I plan to go to gym on Friday, three of my friends agree.... We plan two weeks before
but suddenly one of them (A) say want to play squash. Eventually that plan cancelled as they agreed to her.
Then who knows she changes plan again... to GYM, and all of them say YES.... Then she asked some of our classmates to join....
Huh, dun tell me it is timing problem. Don't know why i think is THE person (ME) who ask is wrong.... -,-
Agree ? ya....
just a bit unhappy is because since you prmise me rdy, please don't try to break it. If you want to please others, JUST please don't PROMISE me anything. I'm not A KID !!!!!

Then, after few weeks, I say I want to go gym, i din ask A them to join coz i sure they will ask me change to other date .
Then A made me change my decision of going to gym to accompany her play squash.....

I think next time i plan for myself ok rdy. Incase... -,-

Cheik, u dun run ar.... u promise me rdy after CNY aR !!!!

Hmm..... interesting

Haha, what i had given a weird title to this post.
Actually this post , I want to write about TODAY!

I use one hour and 20 minutes to arrive to Bukit Jalil from Wangsa Maju wile my friend use 45 minutes only.
At first, after I reach Masjid Jamek, I cross the road....
but who knows, after I have crossed it, a guard told me that its the wrong place and he told me the place....
=.=ll sad!
Then finally ok....
I was told to take the train to Sri Petaling. but the info there shows that the train is Ampang/Sri Petaling so I thought it is both....
-,- waste my time....
The most bad luck is the bus arrive at 10:42 . I waited like a child wanting a candy but can't.. =.=ll

Hmm.... by the way, this is the first time it's a free sitting....
and the person who seating beside me is a guy..

Then my sis CAUSE me OBSERVE THE journey back to hometown.... for telling me about the YTY bulding -,-


Huh....
after back to hometown, my sis had her hand burn because of her DOG : P
haha, : P pity her....

then teach her the keyboard BASIC (at least im OK at the basic)
Then , we had our cheese cake....
haha, never thought still can eat birthday cake after my birthday and hers had ended...

A very good memory of mine.. =.=ll

Lol..
juz now i was going out to cc to do assignment...
after i leave the house, i was chatting with my fren.
Since the elevator is not going to ground floor so I decided through the stair...
After leaving the apartment, I just notice i din bring my hp...
psps.... that time i was talking on phone.... =.=lll i was holding it but still checking my pocket for it.

the most sad thing is... =.=ll i even go back THROUGH STAIR . But at least before i enter home i notice the hp is at my hand...
BUT THAT IS AFTER MY FREN N ME ENDED THE call....

=.=lll cheik, i dun hav short term memory loss but a serious one, haha
=.=ll waste my energy to climb the stair, : P

My birthday Present

^^....
Yeah, I got two hamster as my birthday present from my friend....
hehe....
Their colour a bit like the ai ai n lili colour, grey.
Their difference is this time that two hamster is male....

Hmmm, intended to named them as ai ai n lili....
coz previously ai ai n li li Which is femal, their name means where is the love....
This time , the name would means the love is here.... ^^
haha,.....
juz their mom at the pet shop only....

^^ cheik~
i got hamster liao.... ^^
hehehehe, so happyy ^^
Thank you crab crab.... ^^

Demand?


Huh?

Back to a demanding person O.o =.=ll

I’m a person who always say ‘cincai’ or’ sui bian’ which mean anything

Asking me to have a demand is a bit easy but asking me to SAY out my demand, it’s real hard….

Its like asking me to find my own grave…. : P

As I would scare I would made the wrong choices

Eg. When there is a problem,

There always are solution, maybe more than 2 choices…..

Hence, when choices are made,

When the decision is set,

No u-turn back….

What is done is done….

OR

Eg. If you find problem for the relationship between ur bf n u, n the solution is either endure or split and u chooses to split but after u ask to break up with ur bf, then you felt regretted….

Supposing there is an u-turn….. asking that guy whether can be together again….

And if that person agrees, u r really a very lucky person as its hard to have another chances when wrong decision are made….

^^ If I’m that person, I’ll sure will appreciate that guy a lot and TRY not to let go again causing him to hurt once more or anything bad happens to him….

Hmmmm,,,. Wonder will it be me…. O.o : P

haha

Love


Love is suppose to be a complicated thing yet a easy thing.

You won’t be able to know if the love is there or you will fall in love with a ‘USELESS” person…..

No one has the answer and maybe that person also didn’t know….why….

Some love are easy to gain and some love are not….

I think love will be complicated especially for those who think themselves are ‘useless’ as they might found its impossible that a person will fall in love with her although she is the kind of ‘good for nothing’.

LOL! When do I become so good at LOVE, haha : P

Hmm…. Maybe coz I read that storybook….. : P

Will the relationship last long?


I read a book before and it in my mind for a long time =.=ll , I forgotten the names….

I paraphrase it as I only remember the storyline but not all of the story….

There is a girl who does not quite believes in love and she believes that through love, not only happiness can be found but also sadness….

Then he stated to fall in love with a guy…. That time is just a simple love, interested to have a further relationship as lover with that guy.

That guy has done a lot of things for her and he’s a very nice guy.

The girl might says guys always prefer friend than their lover but that girl could feel that he has given most of his available time to her but not his friend….

As time goes by, she not sure if she has really fallen in love with him or feel grateful to him as its hard to be with her….

But soon, she has her answer, when she miss him but can’t see him or when she made him sad angry, will made her cry. And in the world besides her family and education, he is the only person who can made her cry.

Later one, she wonders if they never started and kept as being friend , he might be happier as he is quite a happy guy but she has bring not only happiness (maybe some) but also sadness and anger….

When they are both upset with something, she will think if maybe they are friend maybe he wont be upset of angry….

Hmmm…, should say her is a negative thinker or what….

Then sometimes , she will wonder why she can’t be a decisive person…. If she can, she won’t bring much trouble to him……..

But thanks to his friend who also her friend, who reminded her to trust him and to hold on this love….

It’s a bit hard for that girl to kept it as a secret that she never told him about she referred some things about him to his friend as she sure unhappy things will be happen.

But she refer to his friend because they are classmates for a very long time ago and surely his friend know him more than she does…..

From the moment she understand everything, she decided not to be indecisive , stop wondering thing, hold on the love that she let go before, and trying ways to make him happy including telling cold jokes but it seems not happening.

Having a love is easy, having a true love is hard, maintaining a love is harder but let go of a love is the hardest.

Hmmm…. Wonder if the girl will be able to hold on that love….

Hmmm…. Wishes her she will…. ^^

: P I didn’t finishes that story….. : P

Thinking


Sometimes I will wondering if thinking is a crime….. as in the past when I’m unhappy I would think happy thing when I was alone , walking….. ending up with smiling =.=ll but ppl will prefer to say im crazy… -,-

Huh, a bit hopes to be back to the past ‘ME’ before I came to KL, at least that time my though is much more simpler, happier, and more positive….. hmmmm…..

But now my thought are quite full of negative things,….

=.=lll so it’s a bit hard for me to create post to my blog…..

Friends


Best friend for me is those who has accompany me during the times of good and bad

And friend is the people who I know, I mean their names and so on , eg. Classmate O.o

Whoever is not my enemy..

Some people told me that friends are to be use….. every moment with them are using them

Eg. When you are boring you will find them but when you aren’t boring you wouldn’t.

At first, I never THINK of this, I only care of being a nice friend to them…..

Hmmm…. Miss lisa, shi wai, n segari.... : ) My best friend who really who me very well …. : )

But as the time goes by, I started to think is it true for what I am told. But the face is I want my friend to share the happiness not to use them as human are always unhappy so I want them to be happy … although I might give them cold or crap jokes…. : P

That why I created some wishes or reminder that reminds them they still have me as their friend although we don’t contact each other anymore…. And now I didn’t do so, : P hehe, my hp bill increase rdy, so I can’t, haha

Plus Im a person who can be considered as a loner, so I wouldn’t mind not to talk to people….

But I will prefer to male people chat as sometimes I will saw people sitting at a place looking boring really upset thing for me…. : P

So I will try to make that person talk , through a tomboyish way : P hehe, if I got things to CHAT with them…..

Greed


People always be greedy. Yes to the people I know….

It will never end….

At first they might wishes for something then when they get it,

They REALLY appreciates it MUCH

As time goes by, complaint starts to occur….

Then greed occur… started to be greedy and wishes for a better one….

Its isn’t wrong to be greedy….. as it is human nature but it just depends, depends on how much they want…..

Some people greed for

-Money

-Time (would be me…. : P…. NOW)

-Power

-Luxuries

-Person

-…….

Family is the best O.o


I think the most satisfying effect is from family….. when it comes to telling jokes as I remember the most is not other people but my family…

Haha, I still remember my bro reaction , after I bought a kind of toy looks like a fish and will grow when puts it in the water, I fill a bottle with water and that fish…..

After few month, it has grew ….. when my bro saw it, he say who so stupid but that thing =.=ll

so cruel T.T

Then my 3rd sis cheat him, saying that the fish is a real fish just has been kept for a long long time after it dies and it looks like that, that time I almost laugh out, but when my sis failed to convinced him, I tried too but he believes….

so happy my bro believes me although it’s hard to…. : P ok, I noe im a bad sis

He….then…. Told my mom about that fish thinking it’s a real fish

Then soon, he realizes it’s a joke, he said ’ he hates that fish’

What a cute bro I had…. : )

Just because he is naïve, I mean honest to this world NOT stupid, I found he is cute because it’s hard to find back this kind of cuteness or honesty especially when in kl…. Or in grownup

my first sis told me a funny story before,

Once I heard it, I tried to tell one of my friend, but my friend knew that story….

Hmmm…. A bit sad and disappointed can’t make my friend smile, hehe…. J

Happy life n sadness


Another creation…. : P

Happy life is not just watching things happening around us but to enjoy it.

Many people just care about having happiness without knowing what sadness….

But they tends to forgot that without sadness, the happiness will be reduce when the good news are being told

Without the sadness, you might even can’t feel the happiness…..

So , enjoy your life , don’t be so picky, do things your own way without hurting other people and don’t see sadness as your end of life….

Post Post Post Post


Hmmmm….. a total of maybe more than 13 post has been thought….. hmmm…. Maybe im too bored the moving day. Haha, that day has used up 3 hours of thinking led to so much post….

=.=lll im such a thinker

….

Haha, in fact that day really nothing to do, done with the cleaning job, just thinking about my blog post, avoiding negative thoughts, thankful to one of my friend who has waken me up for something that has really makes me neglect about something but now im sure of it….

Psps, thank you… : )

Then wondering if my 2nd sis miss me, coz I din disturb her by sms or fb rdy…. Haha

as no internet connection asn sms to SG is quite expensive =.=lll im using prepaid card that time, : P

haha, so have to be a bit stingy …. : P

then missing my friend…. And wondering what my FRIENDs are doing…….

Hate For me , Its tired of hating people especially when you don’t want or not wishes to see him or her but you eventually does…. It consume a lot o


For me ,

Its tired of hating people especially when you don’t want or not wishes to see him or her but you eventually does….

It consume a lot of time…..

Hate , forgive and forgot is always be together……

When you forgot about the incident, you are eventually has forgiven that particular person as when you do hate one person, you can never forgets what he has done except you forgave him….

But a lot of people can’t do so.

I used to hate person for cheating me,…..

My trust towards him, at the same time been using me and talk something awful to one of MY Friend.

This hate has made me scare of seeing him…..

Before this if I saw him from faraway, I would quickly took a long path to walk although I would be late to class….

But as time passes, the hate began to lessen….

Can be said as I have forgiven for what he has done but I cant forget it as it is one of the lesson that next time don’t be so stupid…. -,-

Ok, I noe I AM!

That’s why humans are complicated!

Life is actually quite interesting and there are a lot of things that we had never tried before , why are we wasting time to hate people….

But just willing to lock our self to the unhappy past , the unhappy memory….

No wonder will look so UNHAPPY….

As life suppose to full of happiness but are fill with hatred, ending up with full of anger….

Hmmm…. Now I’m trying to SMILE….. try to get back the OLD me who just loves to smile although for a small thing, at least I would be happier and more positive….

And look more FRIEDLY, haha : )

The nature


Natures really treat us well.

The plants provides us Oxygen in daily, their leaves in green are good for our eyes.

Flowers, brings colour to this world making it colourful so that we won’t be boring as we are captivated by the beauty

Rain, freshen the air….. or to some people it just … washes their sadness away in the rain..

Moon, it suits the sky of black with shining stars makes some people feel calm by looking at it….

Sun, gives us the warm and let us see things but some of the things uses heart to see : )

White cloud, gives us joy by guessing the shapes which it looks like as it will form some shape as it travels.

Mountains are beautiful in their look in their colour at faraway

Wind, make the hotness disappear, and quite well-matched with the rain….

Hmmmm….. soothing

Hmmm…. Wishes I can go back to the past, century ago or maybe decades….. hmmm……

That time, the nature is not like current condition where giving to me the world going to end SOON but still a long way….

Hmmm…. Miss the previous nature or…. world

2 is better than one


Haha, creative huh…. =.=ll

Hmmm, know a bit problem but lazy to change, haha…. : P

Some people say that 2 is better than one…..

And some say s otherwise, 1 is better than 2….

And I say if you have one good friend and that would be enough than a lot of friends who forgets you

No matter you are alone or with your friends I’ll be there to support you, when you met problems ….

That why we are friend….

And you will always not be forgotten by me…. : )

Hmmm….. MAYBE its true that 2 is better than one…..

Hmm….

Haha….. : P

Sure I won’t be involve…. : )


Wondering why would people says including my parents says that

‘once you are married , you will only listen to your beloved husband or wife but forgotten your parents’

Hmm…..

Thinking will I be one of the people that is mentioned…. ?

Lol…..

=.=llll for what im thinking about this….

I also won’t be getting married, haha

: P

If my mom wan me get married I sure will tell her nobody wants me… : P

Hopefully my mom that time wont arrange some blind-date for me, haha…. : P

Plus , I don’t think my mom will worried that I can’t married out ….

n hehehehehe, I can say I must follow the other… my first sis, then second then the third one….

Wakakkakkakak

How smart I am…. Lol

Psps, cheik , u no need comment me say im so wuliao think this….

I thought this using few minutes when ma say she say about marriage and blind date…. LONG AGO… : P

Talk


If im angry, I prefer not to talk…. Include a word…

But if I din speak, I will feel like bursting of anger….

=.=lll haih

In this world, talking must be done, if not its hard to survive.

But for me, its harder than ask me to die than asking me to find topic to chat with people….

As I scare will I find the topic and make them unhappy or will they feel odd as we are just a NORMAL friend and that topic are belongs to personal….

Plus although are good friend, maybe there will be no more topic can be said as no special things that has happened or you know that person too well till nothing to ask….

Hmmm…… maybe that the reason I prefer to be in the ROOM…

That’s why I have presentation to…. : P

Haha, weird huh….. but it’s a bit different as when presenting, have to stand infront of crowd although you know them or you will be worrying the presenting skill…. : )

Haha, presentation reminds me of a ….

When in tutorial class , the tutor will ask to present, hmm…. Like reading in front of the class….

Haha, I still remember, when its my turn, I read non-stop….. with less breathing…. Finishes in a short time….

Hehe want to read finish ASAP as I really don’t like to stand infront. : )

Cooking like life?

For me….

When cooking, the process is like your life

Your life might be sweet, sour, spicy, bitter or…..

The oil is like your parents…. As oil is the first thing that you have to use to cook (psps eg. fry not boil),

And our parents are the first people who introduce us to this world.

The ingredient we add into the wok is our siblings or our relative, or the people who involve in our life

Then the salt, the sauce , the sugar, … is like our friends…..

As they are the one who add colours to our life although it might be a bad colour

And there is a saying, people always be influence by the peers and so on….

If you add to much eg. Salt, the food may ending up salty……

The patience you put in your life is like the patience when you are cooking

People always enjoy good quality food than the bad quality food…. I mean …. The taste….

And good food means you having a good life

….

Hmmmm…. =.=lll should think earlier for my English presentation,,,…. It’s too late…. HAih

…. -,- reminds me of the song…. 25min late? O.o

Every ppl have differences

Every people have

different name,

different attitude,

different feeling

different thoughts

different habit

different faces (psps except doppelganger)

and so on….

Every people is different, there are a lot of thing that left unknown to you about other people.

Eg. You may know your friend thinking what but you may not know what your friend likes except he told you everything or you observe everything…..

Hmmm…. I would say you in love with your friend if you observe everything….. : P

Besides there is a saying which was once told to me that ‘there’s a devil in everyone’

I found out it quite true…. Just depends on how much we can be away from the bad intention

The days of waiting

Waiting time is passes is a suffering thing…..

And surely it kills me…..

The day of waiting to move house is very BORED as I had already pack ALL my things and readily to shift my things…..

That day , the hours is like days for me….

I cleaned everything,

- the living room,

-the window… : P causing myself almost fall down from the chair, hehe

-the bathroom

-the kitchen

Hmmm…..

Lol, all these post that I post TODAY and the previous two post is the ‘THINGS’ that I had written THAT particular day and edited YESterday…..

Water

Hmmm….

Why must I afraid of water, T.T

Love the feeling of being in the water, it make me feels like…

Free of all the problems and things…..

Hmmm…. Maybe because of drowning….

Haih…

But after the drowning, I do enjoy playing the water……. And after that I got one chance to be in water and also enjoyable

But….

Why I still remember that …. Scare… feeling…. Of being drown….

Hmm…. Think before I start to be in water again, I better learn again the Circulatory Pulmonary Resuscitation (not sure the spelling), incase, haha….

=.=ll if myself drowned, I save myself ? -,-

Ok, a cold joke…. : P

-.- not a cold joke but a stupid joke, I know….

End of life?

The end of life isn't the scariest thing in the LIFE for me....
I think it would be 'Nothing to do' .
It's a bit like waiting the death time coming....
Hmmm.... a bit sound suffering to me.... Huh

So when I free,....

I can't say I scare to be alone as sometimes I quite enjoy being alone....
but sometimes I will feel scared to be alone and prefered to be in the crowd....

But no matter I'm alone or not, I will sms some 'wishes' to my friends of family to remind them still got a FRIEND who always care of them....

Hmmm..... but currently all my wishes that I have kept all this years in my hp, has been deleted and sadly says my brain stucked rdy so I can't comes out witha good wishes.....

Friends like sims

Being friend is like playing 'The Sim' game to me.
There are few categories : aquitance, friends, best friend and enemy.

If you treat a person wholly, doesn't means that he or she will...
and if you treat a person as your best friend, he or she might treat you as an enemy....

Every people has his o her own thoughts.....
Nobody will know what a person thinks except know that person VERY WELL....

ready to get back to reality...

Fun time really fast over....
My next sem will be starting at Monday and I have to go back tomorrow morning..
Sad.... ~
huh, but what can I do..
we can hide ourself in our dream as one day we had to face the reality...

for some people, reality is ....
like a monstrous monster while will preserve greed, selfish, .... among the people.
For some people, they will force themself to think that the reality is same with their ideal dream.... forcing themself to accept the reality.
While, i think im the one who prefer to be OUT of reality..... as avoiding reality mainly means avoiding sadness which is the bad news.....in my life.... : )

Inhuman people

I just watch a video posted at the Facebook about a gang of people is torturing a puppy.
Through the languages that they are talking in that video, its not in China.

I always thought China would be a place where animals thought it is a hell.
as the dog or cat are beaten to dead then being sold....
but that video is where that ruthless gang, torture that puppy for entertainment purpose

I always heard that ppl always dont compare ourself with an animal as they are ANIMALS.
But think that those inhuman people are the true ANIMAL.

If you really think about it, dog also have mother, and when they are still puppy their mother will protect them. Just imagine if you are being bullied or tortured, if you are luckily you will be protected by your elders or friends or family....
but animal are different,

Sometimes i just don't understand why those which torture animals wont have the feeling of guilt. When I was a kid, i accidentally made few kitten...
then from that day, i had a nightmare for a week....
at least i felt regretted....
But how would they feel enjoy after doing such a evil deed.
maybe after all, they just a devil!

A thought of seeing 2 puppy

n the way to Ayer Tawar where my dad's workshop located, i saw a cute puppy then after 15 minutes i saw another puppy.

At first , i want to ask mom whether can bring the puppy home or not, but i sure my mom will say no so i din ask coz SHIRO has bring a lot of work to her, so she wouldnt want more work for her to do.... : P

then it reminded me of Toshiro....
at the day bringing toshiro back to the apartment at kampar, i have been wondering... 'Does she have any disease'....

then soon that sentence reminds me of my current hamster..... among 22 hamsters, got one have mentally aggressive problem, if you touch her, your hand would be very wounded as she will keep on biting without letting it go....
she quite different with her grand grand grand gran..... or maybe her ancestor.....
Ham Ham ,nick name = budong because besides he very friendly, does not bite, he also SELDOM move when being touch.....

now wondering, y i will think a thing from a thought....

=.=llll maybe that 3omin journey to the workshop is too boring ... perhaps..... hope so ( so that i won think that i keep thinking bout those weird thing, haha) .... : P

an aggresive dream....?

huh, luckily this morning i woke up before i being killed in my dream.... hmmm....

it quite scary for me....
the background is like in a castle or something similar with it.....
it got monsters and humans, like the alien vs predator.....

in my dream, the monsters are like savage while the human will hide....
i still remember the feeling of almost being killed but ending up i killed it.... =.=lll

i remember that dream quite weird coz that round is the first round... human win.....

then the second round, it takes place at a abandoned workshop, bot got one similarity which is got place for you to hide, if you are caught, you or the monster will be killed.
the second round, i'm being chased.... couldnt able to hide myself in time....
then
THE END OF MY DREAM~

a sudden busy day

haih, so sad
at first, i thought today would be a free day for me but....

today after went for the dental,
then went with mom to the shop to buy something then....
my dad called, asking me to buy the printer ink....
i went to two shop , both also din have...
then my dad ask me to bring the .... can inject the ink to the cartridge.... =.=lll have to go to workshop there..

at first, i tot very fast settle, who noes, more than an hour spent there

then back home, have to help my dad to scan and print....
hmm...... if being told that i will be given things to do, nvm, but.... suddenly got things to do.... really frustrating.... made me have to cancel what i have planned ... T.T

a success fried rice

....
wakakakakakak, yeah, today i successfully cook a fried rice.....
: )

so happy.... at first i tot it wont success scare it would be too salty,
so i referred to my dad....
he told me,
it is better to mix the soy sauce with the salt first incase when cooking i put too much salt....

for the kicap pekat =.=ll i not sure in english it's called what,
my dad says i can chooses not to put it
=.=ll hehe but i still chooses to put it , if not the rice colour will not change.....

i uses my own method to cook it....
first fry the onion ( so that the smell will much more better)...
then the egg, when the egg is still in liquid form....
quickly put the rice into the wok
then finally pour the mixture to the rice..... : P

hmm....
although its not TOO satisfying.... but at least it got the smell of the onion, the combination of the sweetness and the salty is nice then is wont too dry.... : P
maybe i put too much oil, hehe.... : P


Yeah, my first real COOK successful.... : )
then ..... mix the rice with

hmm..... days at hometown

now im having my sem break.....
human are weird....
when we don't have something we will wish for one....
when we get it, we didn't feel satisfy with it as time goes y, so we wish for another...........

how i get this idea.... hmmm......

before sem break..... especially when busying with all the assignment, i would think that if there was a holiday or somesort like sem break, would be good....

but now im having, i prefer not to have sem break.....

its true that i want to have a break but not a long break, too long for the work that i have planned to do as it can completed in a short time....

then when the sem break nearly end, nervous and sad would came,
nervous coz don't know what is happening
sad coz have to back to reality.....

back to reality is a tired thing as i have to become a person who is independent
as at hometown i can be like a baby which match with my nickname which my family called me.... : )

hope that everything can be a good ending and a good start after this sem break finished.... : )

helping Shiro bath....

Shiro din bath for a long long time....
hm.....
today i help him to bath, it tokk shorter time than i imagine....

=.=lll the problem is.... it splash the water at me.... -,-
psps means it's a bad dog WAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.... : P

he quite obedient.... coz he din move a lot when i help him bath.... : )
quite ok la, my skill , haha
=.=lll but not sure i will help him bath next time.....

=.=lll coz after help him bath i have to bath COZ my shirt and pants wet rdy and full of his fur..... =.=llll

veanne.... ~~ when i was drying him..... my hand full of his fur leh.....
he won botak hor.... O.o ?

A conversation becomes cold joke

haha....
=.=ll

ivan: u noe why i scare to go tuition at tuesday?

me : coz there are pretty girls....

ivan : why would i scare of pretty girls?

me : coz u are not prettier than them....

haha -,-

Its a terrible morning

This morning i wake up early....
i duno why i will wake up early , perhaps yesterday i too early sleep rdy....
hen since so free, so i went wth my mom to the dental....
luckily the denist is a guy....
coz he use a lot of energy to help me cabut...
-,- if a girl , i sure die....
then i go cabut gigi....
T.T ouch! juz arrive home not long, i can feel not so numb rdy, and the pain..... can feel it...
T.T my entire life , first time....
i most hate those ain which will not pain till make me cry but will keep torturing me....
>< nice, no need to talk for at least half day.....
.....................................
=.=lll

barks that scares me....

Yesterday about 9pm, i was staying at my room .... waiting for a phone call....
When i was relaxing on the bed. Suddenly got a weird feeling fills within me and creeps me up....
then a thought came into my mind.... my granma before she died , she always sleep at that room when she came to stay overnight....

the few minutes of remembering... makes me scares the next time i blink my eyes, i will sees a thing that I suppose not to see, ..... my granma sleep beside me.....
That thoughts really scares me off,....
luckily my bro came in n chat with me....
then i din let him leave, haha

Then after that, suddenly the thoughts back to me and then Shiro starts to bark non-stop....
outside of the room.... MY ROOM.... THE ROOM my granma....

then i went out to see shiro, he barks towards the room.... barks towards me when I came out....
when i touch him, i could feel he put his strength to bark....
usually u will see him strengthLESS.... : P

that moment he really scares me.....
then soon we all went to the living room include shiro.... but he still barking..... looking at the roof.....
at first i thought its because of the incense smell makes him bark but ... that time, my dad haven burn the incense or smoke.... =.=lll hm....
then,i saw him trembling.... and the way he look at the roof like he somesort like being scold....
if my Toshiro is here, it would be great.... that time if she aso barks, it means there really.... somthing there....

THE END..... -,- ....
actually i quite agree with my fren saying that its impossible to see....
but.... its my granma....

b4 tis, got two weird things happened b4 when y uncle passed away, at the 7th day after they passed away so im a bit ..... SCARED....

A VERY interesting day indeed, haha

My sis back from SG and arrive at me there at about one sumting (think so, forgotten rdy)
then we have some girls talk.....
I made her had her sleep at about 6 sumting in the morning , haha
then i went to wash my clothes, bout nearly seven settle, then went to sleep ....
9 sumting wake up, go bath then prepare myself....
went to the wangsa Jusco with my sis at bout 11 am to exchange her sg $ to Rm, then
shop for things.....

then after that we went back to GK for our lunch at KFC ad to get back a list of books that must be bought at the Jalan Pahang nearby GH.
psps, we went there by bas and back to gk to put the books by taxi....hehe
coz we scare we dun enough time.....

then after that we went to KLCC to terminate the maxis broadband.... by the time it has settle its already 2 sumting....
then we went to kelana jaya, the lrt.....
then we went to 1u by taxi (3:15pm) coz we wanted to see the love in disguise....
by the time we arrive its about 3:45 plus the time for searching the GSC/
then we decided to watch the 5pm movie,
while we hav time, we shop for bag for my sis, my bro b'day present and finally for me, hehe.... : P

then finally time up, we bought water, meatball and mashed potato to the cinema...
huh, luckily that time haven starts...
it ends at 6: 40 like that....
=.=lll we search for the exit to the taxi station,....
inside the taxi at 7:15pm...

then, bout 8:45 arrive GK, we went to buy dinner...
>< we sit beside the swimming pool at the apartment im living....
=.=lll my sis eat very fast.... -.- such a eater, HAHA
then i have to stop eat my dinner and rush to the block which i have to check whether the room that is ok for me to move into by the end of this month....
its quite ok but it looks smaller but nvm.... anyway its only myself who will be staying.... : )
FINALLY, nine sumting settle all, back to my room, continue eat my unfinish dinner.
really really tired..... accidentally fall asleep....

>< forgotten to call.... and to set alarm to wake up at 7am....

Huh, a very very busy day.....
luckily not going back at yesterday at 9 sumting, if not i sure will die since so tired rdy , hav to sit for a 4 hrs tip ... =.=ll
n summore a continuous rushing day...

>< no rest for the whole day, keep rushing walking and running, except in the bas, lrt, taxi and in the cinema only.... T.T

looks like a long long time

Its has been a such a long long time since i has been posting...huh.... feels like years.... aha
i found one similarity.... once if i din post anything for a long time,....
by the time i start posting again, at the same day, i will be posting few post in that same day.... : )

finally....

So happy, finally I'm back..... to S'wan....
My favorite place of all i think is Sitiawan, haha

Huh, and finally today can online already.
wow, i think since exam starts not long i din online rdy
haha, now i think back how i pass my time after the exam end at kl..... by playing freecell, spider solitaire, the sim 3 and the zuma.... =.=lll hmmm, a bit like hell

Huh! wat a day.

Huh....
now i understand my mom busy schedule....
Today i need to go to the photocopy shop to photostat something
but the saddest thing is ... i took the wrong set of paper,... that time i was near to that shop...
haih, need to go back to home to take the CORRECT set....

Then its's settle.
I was pending to go to college.
i went back to the shop to take the photocopy back, on the way to there i almost sprain my... for bout 3 times.....
then after arrive at the class...
i was told actually there is no eng class.... nvm.... i was ask to go to the sbs office(at the second floor ) , i slowly walk down the stair.... =.=lll
like that aso almost fall down TWICE.....


wat a ... INTERESTING ... day.... ><
haih, then feeling not well, i aso dunno y.....
hope this miserable day will end fast... : )